90% of my life is me making an irritated looking face
I can confirm that I have sabotaged relationships because I don’t think I deserve them. I also think that I am sabotaging it on purpose to get it over with.
I can also confirm that my brain has intellect but has an awful instinct.
Instincts might be safer but it will always leave you in a place, where you’ll always crawl back to your senses to dig you out of the conundrum.